having really been blogging cuz my days have just been the same... either tv, tennis, computer games, xbox, talking on the phone, surfing the net or going out... yes, i'll start studying really soon. tuesday.

anyway, now tt my little babe is asleep (i hope), i guess i shall blog... today and yesterday, i sort of realised something. all of my friends around all have problems, whether its big or small, they all have problems. yeah, i listen and try to help... but sometimes, i wonder if i'm even helpful... sometimes, u feel like u know what's best for them, but then, u have doubts. and u end up not giving them so advice which u intend to. and it just makes me wonder sometimes, what should i do?? and it sucked tt tonite, i was trying to help a few pple at once, and i dun think i managed to achieve anything. damn it.

i've decided from my friends' experiences tt love in jc... haha, it exists and works out... but much more often then not, it results in hurt and sorrow. but somehow, when pple get bitten by the love bug, they become rash and irrational, and do all sorts of things they would advice their friends not to do. and dun try to tell me otherwise, cuz u are.

i'm not having the best holidays of my life... but so far, everythings been fine after SATS. i've got a chance to do many things i wanted, talked with pple i wanted to, caught up with some friends and stuff, so i'm content in a way... but really, i wanna make things better for them... and i wish i knew how to. sighs...

the things i used to think of, and hope for as a child, a teenager... my dreams, they are so difficult to attain. and everyday, i seem to be further and further away from them. some of the things i do, they bring me further away from them. but at least, i know i'm doing them in the interests of others, and my conscience is clear... :)